RaiN R aLmOst Ov3r...

     Not recovered yet... can feel the weakness this morning... after the run, i almost can't walk straight... the flu is getting slightly more serious ba... now still feeling weak... a single breeze can make me feel cold... yet my body seems to be warm...

     This morning went jogging alone... even though Hao and Wen are around... i jog and exercise almost myself... they have a friend with them... Don't really like mixing with stranger... :x call me anti social ba...

     Just return from work an hour ago... due to cashier having MCs... tonight they have shortage of staff... i went down to work lor... with work, i tend not to think much... haha... anyway... i am pretty fine mentally....

     i tried to avoid getting myself liking people around me too deep... as friends ba... but i guess i failed... my collegues treated me with all their care and kindness... Everyone start questioning why i am quiting, how am i feeling (since i'm sick) etc... all voiced their concern on me... As i mentioned earlier... i did not did a good job and due to my carelessness.. i am required to pay some amount... but its so-called decreased... as one of my mistake was paid by my chief cashier somehow... she don't allow me to pay for that...

     Feeling dejected these days... i went through the testimonials people write for me in friendster.com... Can't believed i have made an impact on so many people... Even though some may be short or almost nothing... but every efforts count... hence... i guess... i shouldnt think so much... i guess i am who i am... and i do not really need to expect more from myself? Can sense the losing of friends... one, two, three, f...

     I had been suffering emotionally since i don't seems to get what i always wanted from friends... but i guess.. i just accept reality and moves on in life....