AHm

      Yesterday, i made my specs, collect my contact lens... and went ktv with Jin only... Due to the 'GF Day' most guys accompany their gf or the rest had activities on... leaving only me & Jin... not bad i did enjoy myself... but i hate the group of guys keep looking over my direction... i guess they are commenting the actions i came up with while singing... you know what i mean? Thanks Jin...

      AHM today... its only 12km for me... but its definitely longer than the BN Run's 12km... every KM check pt. seems to be pretty far apart... but glad i made it... at first i thought of just walk through it... but young kids & handicap participants shamed me... and i suddenly felt motivated to run... so i end up running after the 2km mark... its really a 'mind run' as its all in your mind to finish it... of course, i am not fast... Dz & Jx are pretty fast... many participants ended up go for the 6km... due to 2 reasons... #1 lazy.... #2 poor management.... there isn't indications at the spliting points... i run up to the marshall to ask... at least i did complete 12km...

      I had tried to be happy... but i am totally worn out... and couldn't hide my feelings... im not unhappy about the run, Jx... but i guess you more or less know the reason le... i'm in dilemna on whether to leave or stay... but thanks for sms-ing me... i never thought you would do that... you are definitely a good friend... knowing where i stand did make me felt more comfort...

      up till now... i still remember a question that i had always been asking myself... but Dz brought it up that day on FRI's run... "Not asking other people... ask yourself... did you have any achievement...?" I guess apart from the fact that i did slim down... all by myself... there is no achievement at all... sadly but its true... that is why i always say my life is empty...

      it may be unfair and i know i am selfish... but i just thought that maybe... if you guys don't care about me... you guys might be more happy... that is why... if you guys are happy... im happy le... i don't wish to affect any other people's mood...