friendship

      its something strange... and fate had it spiritually connected... somehow... you need friends... no matter how independent you are... to me? as i always said... its very important... and i couldnt carry on living without my friends... especially those very close to me... no need further mentioning... you all know who you are...

      I wonder if its GOD toying me or they just want me to get back to whom i should be... i was amused by what had happened over and over again... and its something unexplainable... or is it merely coincidence? Like i said... there are times when i almost thought i should be all alone... there are messages from friends or actions from them... telling me that they are there... assuring me that they stand by me...

      A few times when i am down... and felt so alone... CgM send me sms... those FWD message... even though many people thought that its pretty 'bo liao'... especially for guys sending to guys... but it is this that maintain the link between two person... CgM is my BMT darling... haha... its strange... but it do happens... i somehow felt that he could actually tell that i am down even he is not by my side... ridiculus? i don't know...

      If that is not spiritual connection... then what about the multi-coincidence i had with Dz... there are many times when we spoke the same words at a same pace with same tone (at times)... So can anyone explain to me that? Somehow he know how i felt... without me explaining much... he know where i stand and seldom did he misunderstand me... only me can't really know what he thinks... haha... as he almost reveal nothing to me... or there is nothing to reveal... same bunk for at least 11months... so i guess the connection is built there? There are times when only i know what he trying to joke when the rest don't... hmm... spiritual connection huh?

      When i felt insecure of who i am recently... i saw KoonEk & KR leaving a testimonial for me... which somehow did spur me on a little... knowing that people appreciate me... that is the reason... i guess... why i am still pondering about... whether i am bringing happiness or simply making people around me unhappy... especially those who cares... like Jx & Dz... Should i stay? or Should i go?