hectic week

      A rather hectic week for me... After being 'demoted' to the reserve squad.. :x for the CO's COC parade... and being 'marked' by CSM... i moved on and be involved in making two banner... for the event as well... so-called under 'Farewell' category as my PC is in-charge...

      Didn't had mood for the parade and also being misunderstood by CSM for one action... but glad that the rest all understand my part... so i wasn't that sad... Command was given wrongly, hence i didn't move... but the rest of the 4 contigents moved... so i'm at fault... if it was those days... i might be sad for being picked out... haha... alot of us was out of the squad... including Dz & Jx (84 & 82)... 3 of our rifle coincidentally formed... 82... 84... 86... haha...

      Out of parade, i was asked to do banner on WED night... i ended up do till wee hours... special thanks to Jx, Dz & TH... they came down to the office to help me... or else, i might took longer... we finished the drawing of banner at 3.30am... and the next day i do a simpler one and stop work at 12.25am... 2LT Wu was doing by himself... hence TH asked if i can go down with him to help.. and we did... Both banners received praises... 2nd banner received more help... from N33/39...

      I had always tried to accept TH... and i guess this incident build a bridge... Tian Shi, Di Li, Ren He... Although we are back to talking terms... i still need time to fully accept him... give me time... i had been trying very hard... trust me... Some conflicts or, more likely should be called, misunderstanding in between... but glad that cleared out just now... If Jx never reply my message... i might felt worse...

      Felt tired... sad... scared... on my way home... especially when Dz was too tired & fell asleep... i was back alone... had been thinking alot... but its all over... like Jx say... i even thought of posting a 'close friend' post to say my disappointment... but its cleared... i guess we are just people who can't express ourselves well... i guess i should be more open to him & express more to the people around me... i've learned... and still learning... and i will definitely be a better man...

      "Human normally will show more temper to people he is closer with... 'cos he know that they will always forgive them..." its from Channel 8, 9pm show... i totally agree and to me, i guess, is always "he/she expect more from people he/she is close with... hence react differently towards them"

      i felt so relieved and happy to clear my unhappiness... hehe...